starry thoughts

My swollen red eyes have given away my sadness from just finishing the book The Fault in Our Stars. This is the best most horrible book I have EVER read! *yes this book actually has a good bit of language and a small bit of sex! I would not recommend reading this if you are under the age of 15! I would not have read it if I had known but I had to finish it!*


I do have to say I love this book. Being able to see into the life of a cancer patient, that hates all the sympathy and cliche remarks people make on cancer. And how heroes aren't always the ones who have saved many lives but just has an ordinary one, impacting the people around them on there short time on this earth. Ever since I heard the quote "My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations" I have loved it. (Even tho I did not know it was in this book!) So now I know where it comes from and will try to restrain from crying every time I hear it!

I must add that I love books like these to remind me how precious life is. In the last year after losing my Grandfather and some friends I have tried to appreciate my family more. I know it's a very sad thought (and I am being extremely sappy OHMYGOODNESS) but what if I left angry at my little sister than didn't see her again. If I died I know she would feel terrible the rest of her life, and if she died I would probably consider myself a failure as a big sister and never forgive myself as long as I lived.

While walking through Hobby Lobby today I saw a picture that said

"because when you stop and look around, this life is pretty amazing"

And it truly is. So many times I get down about what I don't have and never think about all the things I do! I am so selfish! God has blessed me with this extraordinary life and I need to use it to be an everyday, average, hero.

I'm pretty sure this is one of those times my thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations.

Okay XOXO
Emma Margaret